What Business Are We In By The Way??

Kadang aku heran ya, katanya kita in Motivation Business -> why the hell am I using caps there??? Can't believe I'm typing using bawel's typing style ughhhhhhhhhh... anyway, katanya kita in motivation business, mbok ya konsisten gitu lho and motivate your own employee gitu, bukannya demotivating us????

Contoh ya, inget kan soal kontrak 3 bulan lalu yg mereka suru semua pegawai sign, buat bikin kita2 kasi notice kl mau quit 1 bulan kalo kita uda kerja 1 taon, 2 bulan kalo uda kerja 2 taon, or 3 bulan kalo uda kerja 3 taon ke atas? Setelah kurang lebih 3 bulanan mereka lupa, kayanya si bawel ingetin bosku n 1 bos laen lagi deh. Jadinya, one day....

Si Red Head br performance review, feedbacknya positive banget and katanya bakalan naek gaji. Tp 1-2 minggu kemudian, si Poker Face tau2 nyamperin si Red Head.

Poker Face: I was just chasing Lao-Er about your raise, and he mentioned that you haven't signed the contract yet... I'd love to give you a raise, I'm on your side. I just want this to be sorted... bla bla bla bla.... ya intinya loe belon naek gaji soalnya loe belon sign contract.
Red Head: I don't think it's fair for someone junior like me to give 2++ months notice to quit.
Poker Face: Please think about it and get back to me and Lao Er.
Red Head: Lao Er mentioned that I don't have to give the full notice period if I've already got a job, but that isn't in the contract.
Poker Face: I understand.... but if it's in there then it would make the new contract the same as the old one...

See? Demotivating kan? Tiap hari berkoar2 soal success of a company depends on the employees, kita musti motivate employees supaya mrk kerjanya jg makin ok and bikin company makin sukses. Kenyataannya? Yah itu buat company org donk, kl buat sendiri mah laen cerita. Kl buat sendiri mah, ikettttt selama kita masi butuh, kalo bisa suru tanda tangan buat kerja seumur idup, tp kalo uda ga butuh, tiap hari bikin bete aja smp akhirnya keluar sendiri. Sorry deh, aku sendiri Asian, tp serasa kerja sama Asians man...

The funny thing was, pas sehari sesudahnya, si Red Head sakit, beneran sakit, bukannya bolos, dia emang ternyata agak2 penyakitan, jd normal buat dia tau2 sakit. Bosku kepikiran lolllll dia nanya ke temen si Red Head, dia beneran sakit ato ada alesan laen? HUHAUAHHAHUAHAHAAHAHAA sukurinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn XD And the next day wkt Red Head masuk kantor, si Poker Face lgs samperin dia, dia bilang dia bakalan tetep naek gaji regardless of the contract issue, Dia bilang, "I didn't want you to think that we were pressuring you". Hell right you weren't, wong dia pretty much bilang we'd love to give you a raise, but yeah you haven't signed the contract, so please sign so we can give you a raise. Gitu kan kasarnya?? Ampun dah. Dia pikir org2 bego apa -__-

Uda gitu ya, yg aku lagi sebel, kantor kita tuh tiap 3 bulan ada penghargaan buat pegawai teladan gituan lahhhhh periode terakhir kmrn br diumumin and aku gak dapet. Gendek sih, secara aku uda kerja keras 3 bulan terakhir. Honestly, aku uda rada nyerah sih dr brp taon lalu. Abis gimana coba, masa aku ga dpt2 lagi dari maybe 4 taon lalu, terus abis 2 taon baru dpt 1, itu juga bukannya pas period aku ngerasa kerja keras. Aku inget pas aku dpt dl, aku mikirnya cuma, "About time." Abis dr sana, smp skg aku ga pernah dpt lagi. Brp kl taon lalu aku pikir bakalan dapet, eh ga dapet juga, to the point aku uda mikir, udalah, uda diblacklist ga bakal dpt lg, so don't bother trying next time. I stayed true to that the period before last, bodo amat deh, ga ada kerja keras kerja keras apaan juga, krj biasa aja lah, enjoy ur time.

Tp 3 bulan terakhir tuh i had no choice man. Si manager pegi pacaran ke London, terus kmrn itu mudik ke bombay juga tunangan, kita jg baru launch 1 website yg oh my godddddd brief tuh ya either almost non-existent, or bisa ada berapa dokumen and gak jelas musti ikutin yg mana. Kl ikutin yg ini, aku diomelin dibilang pake dokumen onoooooo jangan iniiiii, tar laen kali aku cuekin dokumen ini, and pake dokumen ono, diomelin lageeeeeeeeeeeeeeee dibilang knp ikutin dokumen ini???? kl aku bilang lah kan wkt itu dibilang yg dokumen ini ngaco, jgn diikutin, aku diomelin lagi, dibilang beda kasus ya beda beda lahhhhhhhhhhh WOOOOOOOOIIIIIIII how do i know??????? dia jg ga bilang2???? and emang aku apaan bisa inget kl sales pake dokumen ini, kalo marketing pake ono, kl advertising pake ini, dll dll, kenapa ga update aja itu dokumen, apus2in yg gak bener???????????? Belon lagi itu project managernya yg nggak banget deh management skillnya, super micro management and super fucking annoying mannnnn, bingung deh bisa ada org kaya begituan -_- Uda 3 bawahan dia at least yg minta pindah duduk dr depan meja dia soalnya gak tahan being watched like a hawk. Not my word. His own word in the email yg gak sengaja kekirim ke bawahan dia instead of ke boss (dia mau ngadu ceritanya).

Anyway long story short, it wasn't my choice to work hard last qtr, but I still did my best and I still maintained my quality of code ya. Gak cuma asal copy paste biar cepet aje. Kemaren itu aku liat code si little missy, ya ampun nengggggggg, coding bok ya jangan copy paste 5 kali and cm ganti where ajaaaaaa.... gpp deh kl itu table cm 100 records or 1000 juga gpp dehhhhh, wong ini millions of records gitu lho, gak heran lama bener itu page ngeload -_- yg beresin sopo? ME! Belon lagi aku musti baca codenya sendiri n figure out itu code ngapain sebenernya (managers sibuk, ga sempet jelasin isi itu code ngapain).

And where's the appreciation? 0 besar.

Kemaren itu aku ada bilang si manager pas dia ngeledek soal aku cancel lunch rame2 buat ditraktir little missy (i'm honest ya, so what i say in here is the truth and only the truth, aku lagi sakit leher kmrn itu, and uda janji makan di pub sebelah, which u know lah makanana pub gorengan semua, bisa jadi apa tenggorokanku ntar?? jd ya aku cancel lah. Eh pas si little missy menang itu penghargaan, and seperti biasa, aku dgn ga tau malunya malak traktir lunch. Bodo. Aku uda sebel ga dapet, at least aku dpt makan gratis wekkk plus aku berani jamin si little missy dpt itu penghargaan, dikit banyak aku jg ada andil di situ pasti). Anyway si manager intinya ambil kesimpulan kalo aku cancel gara2 mau traktiran. So aku bales, just drop it, I'm still dissapointed aku ga dpt itu penghargaan, so don't rub it in. Dia bales, iya, gw uda perkirain you'd feel that way. I wanted to give you a heads up yesterday, I know you've been trying and working hard, you're almost there, I appreciate your effort bla bla bla... Again, aku itu jujur orgnya, so I said yes I'm disappointed, I did a lot this qtr. Terus dia bales bilang, "Don't be too disappointed, I remember I worked really hard one quarter and I didn't get it, I was really disappointed. But then another qtr I got it even when I had annual leave". Now, hold it there.

Kita itu kerja di bisnis apa ya anak2?? Motivation Business buuuuuuu. Terus, supaya pegawai bisa motivated, musti kapan ya good worknya direcognise?? Right there and then buuuu. Kenapa ya?? Soalnya kalo uda kelamaan uda basi buuuu, gak ngefek lagiii...bisa backfire malah. See? and really aku uda kelamaan di sini man, aku kerja di IT, tp kenapa bisa tau segala macem ginian instead of angular, mvc, nodeJS etc etc????? Remember what I said was in my mind wkt aku dpt itu penghargaan 1.5 years ago? "About time". I wasn't ecstatic. "About time" was exactly how I felt. I should have got that sooner. Robin Hood had same experience. 1 period dia kerja setengah mati and gak dapet, next period dia gak gitu kerja gimana and dia dpt, you know what she said? "When I got it, I was furious! You didn't give it to me when I worked so hard, why are you giving it to me now???" In my case now, aku mustinya uda dpt 2x at least in the last 1.5 years -__-

Also, si manager blg Almost there? aku uda kerja segitu keras masi dibilang almost there??? When you want to motivate people, you set them targets. Reasonable targets. Not too low, not too high, it has to be reachable so people don't get put off and just give up from the beginning. Honestly aku ngerasa targetku uda not reachable anymore and i should just not give a damn about it. Lebih repot kl itu target ga diannounce. Hmm.... remind me again kenapa kita taro targets and results di clients websites, bolak balik kirim email suru pegawai mereka login, buat apa ya coba??

What business are we in again? Why is it different for your own employees??? Tell me why.

Interview Stress and Office Drama is Not Good For My Health

I went to an interview yesterday. My first interview in over 8 years. And you know what? If I had more interviews aligned, by the end of it I would be as skinny as my sister.

Since it was arranged last Friday I lost my appetite to eat. Completely lost it. That day I only had half sausage roll for lunch, small piece of meat with salad for dinner. Sat lunch half eaten rad naa, dinner very little of my mum's cooking. Sunday lunch cereals. Not even a full bowl. Dinner rice with bakut teh, mostly just the broth. Monday lunch 2 small fruit buns. Dinner little rice with omelette and veggie. Tue lunch tea and 1 biscuit -_- I really need to weigh myself. I can feel my pants loose around the waist. I'm actually hungry, but just no appetite.

I haven't even told you about my sleep. I wake up as early as 5:30 since Saturday! Even when I slept at 12:30-1AM. Once I open my eyes, I start worrying again. It's really not a good thing for my health.

About the interview, I pray pray and pray that they don't call me back for second round. I don't think I did well anyway. Plus it's really opposite of what I want. It is not bad, but just not what I wished it would be. And I'm worried I would take it just to escape my current company and regret it afterwards.

Another thing that I worry about is the contract. Last Friday DaShaBi signed it, Monday brush head signed it. Yesterday, Lao-Er asked red head and little missy to sign it. They both managed to delay it, but they don't know how they can get away. I don't know either. We really need help from fairwork. If only someone can tip them off :(

Ah and finally Robin Hood talked to superexcited yesterday. Telling him about how prick has been treating and micromanaging her all these time. About time, I said. As the result, she's moving desk further from him today and would be off that big annoying project by the end of next month. Prick was called into meeting to explain why that big annoying project is 5 times over the budget. His excuse is the cost was done before the requirements document was made. Water Tap and I were like, well... You should have worked around the budget. It's like you pay $1000 for a party, but don't know how many are coming. When you finally know how many are coming, then you decide on appropriate food. If 50 people come, then they get $20 of food each. But if 100 come, well tough luck, you get cheaper one. Isn't it?

The problem with prick is, he over over OVERcomplicates things. The brief could be just a page with list of things to do. He will turn it into an online checklist where you can check off when you finish it. It's a great idea ofcourse, but not when the client doesn't pay for it???

Later that day, Prick went to Robin Hood and apologize. She said she almost felt sorry for him as he was teary eyed. That's the good thing about Prick. He can easily apologize to people. But yeah about changing? Don't wish so much. This is at least the third time someone who works with him has requested to be moved away from him.

Anyway wish me a good and peaceful day please. I really really need it. And please please please don't ask me about that interview, at least for the next 6 months, since it's giving me headache -_-